I still don't know. I'm still riding this roller coaster. Still not sleeping. Eating bugger all. It's so hard to work this stuff out when my Husband is away and won't be home until about Wed. He did say he will take a week off to spend time with us.
I understand why he did it but I can't accept that he did do it...Make sense?
One day I'm all agreeing on trying to work things out, the next day we are trying to work out a suitable payout so we don't have to go though the courts in the divorce.
He admits it was SO wrong what he did but why can't we move on and forget about it? he doesn't understand how violated I feel.
I'm not a 100% angel in this marriage. I do take him for granted etc... Maybe its because I hardly see him. Maybe 1.5 days a week or fortnight. I think we have both forgotten what the word marriage means. We are reaching for the stars to set ourselves up for the rest of our lives and grabbing more than one, but our relationship is suffering almost beyond repair.
I have decided to get a job. For many reasons, I'm the bored rich housewife who's brain is going to mush. Also I feel in contributing to the finances, not just spending them. Mind you I do work a full time job, helping run the company and bring up 2 kids. Not to mention the bloody zoo we have here.
I'm a qualified swim teacher!! In fact I'm an Austswim assessor. I have worked hard to get this qualified. I can work casually, earn a few buck, work the brain and FREE GYM!!
Any thoughts?
Friday, July 4, 2008
Is Life Really Fucked?
Posted by Cheryl at 1:22 AM
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My thoughts? I wouldn't get divorced until I had to. Single parenting looks like a fucking nightmare chezza. Your feelings might change enough to be tolerable. Stranger things have happened.
Also, get a job - take this opportunity to change what YOU don't like. Stop taking his shit, don't let him control you. He doesn't like your friends/haircut/ job/new shoes?
TOO FUCKIN BAD.
Thousands of couples live like this and they are juuuuust fine. You are only his pet if you allow it babes.
Forgiveness takes time. I'm sure you can get there honey. xxx
Ohh Kitty, you are so wise for a looney..LMAO
Cause that was exactly what I was thinking. I think we will get there, of course I need to change too. If I was the dream wife he wouldnt have done it. It wasnt all about sex. It was frindship, someone to talk too. I want to be that person now!!
Go get yourself that job! Firstly it gives you something else to think about - even if only for a few hours a week. It also gives you some money of your own and HELLO.... FREE GYM!!!!
I am certainly not one who should be giving relationship advice, but I'll give you my thoughts anyway. You don't need to make a decision today, and you have nothing to lose by trying to work things out. Only you can decided if you can forgive him and trust him again... and as Kitty said, that takes time. You don't have to have all the answers today.
Hugs xxx
Yeah ditto what kitty says. Single parenting is a cunt. I fucken hate it. If you think you can work it out, then do it but on your terms!!
Good luck. We're here for you.
xxx
I'm with Kitty and Friday..single parenting and all the bullshit that goes with having a pshyco fkn ex husband suck... mind you i wouldnt change the way things happened, as now 4 years down the track I can actually speak to my ex without wanting to rip his balls out through his throat like I did for the last 5 yrs of our marriage....Bitter... fk yeah... and mine didnt even cheat on me..
Oh hi!!! I popped by via Fridays blog..
Im not gonna share my thoughts....you do what you want to do, get a job, its great to get back out in the workforce!!
No matter what everyone is here ya:)
Em
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